I’m really excited and honored to be part of this blog circle.
On the 20th of each month I will be part of a circle of fellow mothers and photographers in a blog post entitled ‘LETTERS TO OUR CHILDREN’.
From here just visit the blog of Jaime Coyle Photography and keep following the circle round back to me.
When you were first born, you had jet black hair and cheeks so big they looked odd on a newborn. The instant they placed you on my chest, my heart grew three sizes. I had never experienced such an instant and all encompassing love. As the light through the hospital window grew pink and faded and my eyes grew heavy, I placed you in the bassinet next to my bed. I lay my head back on the pillow. I listed to the beeps and murmurs of the machines. I listened to my own breathing. And then I listened for your breathing. I did not hear it.
At that moment, a heavy weight gathered around my shoulders. It was a cape of fear. I reached my hand into your bassinet and placed it on your chest, relived to feel the tiny rise and fall. Those are the two ways motherhood has changed me the most; a new heart so full, brimming with over flowing love and the heavy cape of fear I must wear every day for the rest of my life. I will always love you more than all the stars in the sky just as I will always lie awake at night sending silent wishes into the universe that no harm, sadness or pain ever reaches you, even though I know it will. Being a mother is as hard as it is beautiful. I love you, bug.